it's nothing personal

sister_soldier @ 2005-09-27T08:53:00

2005-09-27T15:54:08Z

true fuckin story.

sister_soldier @ 2005-09-27T08:13:00

2005-09-27T15:23:17Z

what a tired girl.
i haven't worked out
any of my problems
but don't worry i'm not
sick anymore. at least.
i didn't recieve my cellphone
from that asshole ex boyfriend of mine
i'm seriously over it.
HARD.
i want my phone because all my
phones are shitty
and i need my good one.
it actually isn't my good one because i dropped
it into a bath tub but if i can
i'm gonna scam tmobile into giving me a new one
and ill just say one day the buttons wouldn't
work. i dont know.
michael and megan, come over.
megan- see you at homeciming.
saffy brought me roses what a sweet kid.
he is the best it's hard to belive he's
friends with my exboyfriend,
and i have been looking for a good dress for a while but no luck.
it's ok i'll find it. ♥
i hope you guys like my new layout.
bitches.

Girl... you must think that I'm crazy,
But we all know you's a cutie,
And you're all like, "nuh uh boys dont wanna get with me."
Girl please,
I can see straight through those...
Fake colored contacts.
Your eye's aint blue, I bet that hair's held by glue

sister_soldier @ 2005-09-26T07:57:00

2005-09-26T15:01:05Z

i had a very
long,
very sad weekend
my best friend is
grounded from everything
and i miss her
so much it sucks so bad
it's okay though because
she played tony hawk and beat it.
lucky little bitch
but i did see saffy and tyler
and i saw a kid i havent seen in 3 years
and i saw some kids i'd never met
and i made some new friends
and i resurfaced my myspace
and i made progress with ryan (kinda)
and i got a little better at being
better. and i cleaned my room
and im not sick anymore
but this morning i woke up with
a swollen lip

but i'm better now and
at least i can swallow.

i miss my friends and now that i am better
i need to see:
michael
megan
the gun
chrissy
verin
and saffy

and if alex ever gets up to come over,

sister_soldier @ 2005-09-21T20:44:00

2005-09-22T03:38:59Z

For everything to be consummated,
for me to feel less alone,
I had only to wish that there
be a large crowd of spectators the day of my exectution
and that they greet me with cries of hate.

close my eyes.

2005-09-19T15:16:17Z

i still haven't heard from ryan.
over it.really.
i am really sick of:
- waiting
-trying
-pretending
- missing
-needing
-wanting it.
i've got better things to focus on.
and i guess he does.
and i've been thinking
about my life.
and i decided it's
time to change.
i decided it's time to move on
and bring other
boys to my focus.
and to change the way i am.
and to focus
on my l i f e
and not only the way i get sad about things
and to believe it's gonna get better.
and i know
i'm gonna get better
because i don't need the
feeling that i did something
wrong again.

and i miss megan and chrissy.

sister_soldier @ 2005-09-15T08:56:00

2005-09-15T16:15:20Z

yesterday was fun. i went to the guns house all day. took some good new myspace pictures. yeah. and then we got coffee and hairdye, something we seem to do alot. and then hiked up her little hill to get home. out of breath.

ryan never called or replied to my text messages yesterday. i didn't expect a breakup. never ignoring, and for certain the whole thing in general. i didn't even know we were having problems. in fact, i really don't know much about his explanations. all i know is he obviously has other things to do, and other people to see. "it's just hard to have a girlfriend down there when i'm up at school." and as chrissy put it, translation: "i'm getting mass pussy and i don't need you anymore." i have a feeling he has been and i have a feeling that it's always better than me. and if not better, more convenient. it's nothing to me now. honestly. i really can't anticipate feeling better soon, especially since i know there's no way he'll speak to me unless he needs nookie when he comes to visit.no problem.it's gotten to the point where eating is an option because i'm so sad that i just don't care anymore,my stomach is full of aspirin and water and i'm getting all my energy from sunshine, which i might add i sheild myself from by never wearing less than jeans and wife beaters. anywyas, ryan is over me, and i miss him to shit. i guess it's just weird not having someone to say goodnight to.

i'm lucky i've got some good friends. one of which is my verin, my love, my therapist. i love him.
___________________________________

_________________________________________
he needs someone to take care of him and deserves a better friend than me.

on the bright side, my grandma is doing better and she should be out of the hospital today or tomorrow. my mom is taking me and chrissy off campus to eat today,and at least i still have tony hawk underground.

sister_soldier @ 2005-09-13T09:12:00

2005-09-13T16:14:30Z

it's the talent, not the promo shots

I'm at school again and it's probably the most boring thing ever. anyway-

the way i wanted to start this off was by saying how bad my week has been. it hasn't been as bad as i thought or anticipated.

for my closing thought, i need some fucking friends.

add

add

add

sister_soldier @ 2005-09-07T09:03:00

2005-09-07T16:03:14Z